Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Here I am Again

I'm in a contemplative mood today. It's probably due to the rain and the beautiful music I'm listening to from Monica's blog. I've learned so much about life and the gospel lately that I think Satan uses it to build up my pride. I realized today (once again) that while I know I'm a child of God I have plenty of reasons to be humble.

Does anyone know how in the world it's physically possible to work out, read my scriptures, make 3 nice meals, change diapers for 2 babies, get on the ground to play with and teach my kids, read the books I want to, write in my journal, meditate, keep a house clean with dishes done all in one day, day after day after day? And that doesn't include all the other stuff like visiting teaching, calling stuff, trying to go on dates with Ben, go to the temple...and then all of my goals that I'm not even doing now... Don't get me wrong- I LOVE doing all of it, but I don't know how to fit it in. I know that what I'm addressing is the age-old "being the perfect mormon mother" saga, but I REALLY WANT IT! I'm tired of mediocrity and excuses. But I'm also tired of trying so hard and never achieving it. (And when I say, "trying so hard", most of the time that means sitting exhausted just by the thought of it all).

Does anyone have any ideas?